What is this Adventure?

Full-time Mama & Part-time school social worker in the throes of toddlerhood at its best and worst. In my short tenure as a member of the prestigious Mamahood club, I find the reality of it all to be amazing, exhausting, hilarious, challenging, a blessing, lonely at times, nostalgic, guilt-ridden, and the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me...all at once. Sit back, read, laugh and cry with me on my adventure!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Obsessed meets Reality Check...and then the Battle Ensues

Anyone who has been wanting to be pregnant before knows that suddenly, in the blink of an eye, the whole world is pregnant.  Even the MEN around you are looking a bit more pregnant than you are.  It quickly becomes an obsession - where whatever method you are using in your journey becomes a daily time-waster.  For me, it is a website called FertilityFriend.com that helps you track your basal body temperature and ovulation patterns.  I'm not sure what clue I keep thinking I'll find (as I check the site multiple times a day...it says the same thing every time)...so what AM I looking for?

In the meantime, I am watching a friends' daughter today who is seven.  Suddenly, my eldest is starving for attention.  I realize this quickly:  he has become the middle child for the day.  And he doesn't exactly like this change.  And my attention is torn between three.  It seems SIGNIFICANTLY harder than torn between two... and in creeps my reality check.

I realize something else rather quickly:  while my eldest has the personality to let me know that he is in need of attention (he reminds me a bit of my youngest sister, Dana, when she was around his age.  She used to take my mom's head by two hands and hold her own face 2 inches from my mom's and say, "Mom!  I am talking to you!"...I get it now, Dana, and I'm sorry for teasing you)....anyway...my current youngest is not like that.  Hazel would be content to carry on her way unless she is hungry or tired.  She is pretty self-sufficient and wants to be as independent as possible...

So now comes the Mama worry.  I desperately want to be pregnant with my third.  But how do I make sure that my middle child gets enough attention?  Especially an easy-going, non-attention-seeking, middle child?  I suppose I don't much have to worry about that right now, being that I'm not even pregnant...but it brings me back to the age old question, one that I ask about every other blog post...

Mom, how in the world did you do it?