What is this Adventure?

Full-time Mama & Part-time school social worker in the throes of toddlerhood at its best and worst. In my short tenure as a member of the prestigious Mamahood club, I find the reality of it all to be amazing, exhausting, hilarious, challenging, a blessing, lonely at times, nostalgic, guilt-ridden, and the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me...all at once. Sit back, read, laugh and cry with me on my adventure!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Awaiting k.2...Due date...Came and Went...

Yes, it's been the whole summer and I pretty much abandoned my blog.

I'm not sure why...I could come up with bogus reasons like, "I was so busy soaking up life that I didn't write about it."..but I think the truth may be somewhere in the saying, "I'm lazy."

I thought, when pregnant with my first, that I experienced a vast wave of emotions.
Second time around, I can't BELIEVE how many more emotions I have!

Along with the excitement and nervousness of a new baby, I am feeling nostalgic of Kieran's time as a baby, overwhelmed at the thought of juggling two, guilty for not paying enough attention to my unborn, guilty for the anticipated lack of attention for my first born, thankful once again for family and friends' support, in awe at how my mother ever handled everything, and a million other emotions swarming around in my head.

As my due date came and went, part of me was thankful. I get a few more days with just one child. Of course, the other part of me, the gigantic-belly-I-can't-sleep part of me, wanted nothing more than to greet my new little one with open arms and be able to start deflating this belly!

Perhaps my new love bug is waiting for me to be at peace with this transition?

Oh God, the baby is going to stay in there forever!

Today my husband took Kieran on a day with his grandparents. I am staying home and relaxing. I honestly am not sure what to do with myself...hence, I came to write.

My most exciting feeling about K.2? I am so excited for Kieran and K.2 to bond. I hope, with every ounce, that K.2 and Kieran can be as close as I am to my siblings. As I write, I tear up thinking about how special each one of them is to me. None of them will ever read this, but I hope, through my words and actions toward them, that they know how very much I love, adore, and cherish them. I hope Kieran and K.2 feel that way about each other. And for that...I am so excited.

On that note, I shall sign off and go find something to do. I would clean the house...but....bah....I'm too lazy.