What is this Adventure?

Full-time Mama & Part-time school social worker in the throes of toddlerhood at its best and worst. In my short tenure as a member of the prestigious Mamahood club, I find the reality of it all to be amazing, exhausting, hilarious, challenging, a blessing, lonely at times, nostalgic, guilt-ridden, and the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me...all at once. Sit back, read, laugh and cry with me on my adventure!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Whew, I made it!

So, I left my baby boy for more than a couple of hours today for the very first time...
I know, some of you did this in your baby's first month of life and are looking at me like I used to look at those parents of the kindergarteners...(see previous blog posting)...but it was REALLY hard for me!
Kieran and I both didn't sleep last night.
It was horrendous.
We tried, we really did...
but my nerves got the best of both of us...
Today, we woke up at 4:40 (his idea, not mine), and I nursed him laying down next to me to drug him back to sleep just a tad bit longer....5:25, we're up.....gotta get more powerful drugs, I guess!
I trudged my way to work unhappily, but tearless.......(as opposed to last night, which was a little less tearless...ha ha)
I was happy to get a text from my husband exclaiming that my son "ate like a champ and drank like an Irish man"
When I got home, Kieran was delighted to see me and I couldn't have been more happy to see him.
Made it....
Day one....
90 more days to go....
ha ha ha.
It was a nice workplace.
I'll survive.

Monday, August 9, 2010

My baby is so grown up!

Kieran is almost 9 months now - I bring him to his nine month doctor visit on Thursday!
I can't believe how fast the time has flown by...
Since I last wrote, a number of my friends have gotten pregnant - three in fact!
I become so excited for them because I know what a wonderful life changing event they are about to incur.
At the same time, I am reminded of the sickening gross feelings of first trimester...yuck!
Kieran is standing up on anything he can. He even tries to scoot his feet while standing up...
Before I know it, he'll be cruising.

I go back to work tomorrow. This has prompted me to do a lot of reflecting, hence my return to my blog.
I am NOT looking forward to it. I mean, I like working as a social worker. And I think that I have chosen a very healthy new work place. I just don't want to leave Kieran. Tomorrow he will be with his daddy all day. I will have to leave the house around 7:30 and won't return until about 4:30...that's a long long day...I have not left Kieran for more than a few hours at a time during the day. Have I done him a disservice? Probably.

Being a mom makes me constantly second guess myself like never before. And Kieran's so little.....little baby, little problems.....what will I do when he's older? I better get more mama-confidence before then!

Kieran has also become quite clingy to me. If he sees me, he wants me. If he thinks about me, he wants me and looks for me. He can find me behind closed doors in my house! Ha ha! He's so smart! I guess he's got that "object permanence" concept down!

I love mamahood. Kieran is now babbling mamamamama and dadadada all the time! Not to mention, since I last posted, he got a wicked new haircut!
My baby is so grown up!